Saturday in Red and Orange
I should be writing my essay for PSC right now, but well...it takes a little motivation to get myself moving. Somehow army drains away the intellectual drive in you, agree? Woke up this morning feeling fresh though I slept at like 3 last night.Was talking with janice, waiting for her to 'knock off' from work before I head for bed. Sometimes I wish i am as hardworking as her, then I will have no worries with the scholarship essays. Haiz, that girl. Talking with her seems more natural these days. Conversations aren't as leng dan as before. And I must say that is a relief since my female social circle has really shrunk quite alot. Yep, I know I have myself to blame because I sometimes tend to dao people. Maybe I need to wake up my idea and don't hiam on my female friends. There is really only 2 ladies in this world I can't handle. Janice with her amazing attitude; my mum and her...gosh I don't know how to put this down in words. Haha.
And then it started raining. Mr wong immediately said in msn. I think you no need to sleep liao. Which seems rather true. Its strange. For the past few days, half of me was trying to adopt the don't bother about her attitude. The other half simply enjoy missing her. I don't really understand but as I told wong. Stop thinking so much and be appreciative of what we have now. If not, of what we already had. And because I know she will most probably read this, I shan't talk more about this. Haiz, remember what she said, remember how she felt. Don't want her stressing and thinking about whats up my mind. Part of wanting her to be happy involves me being happy. Kao my english really sucks I really can't phrase this kind of ideas without equations.Grrgg...
A close observe will realise I no longer (ok well i just did so..seldom) write about me and her. Plus I don't talk about me and her unless really necessary. Aiya, cock I think this is one times big dramatic irony. Whatever.
~Deep down inside, I am trying to deny an innate feeling~
Eh dear girl. Something for you. I think you know what to do. Just that you are not too sure of whether its appropriate. I will second whatever decision you make ok. Maybe I am not too involved in the situation therfore I am saying this but I guess it isn't really a big issue. So there is no point worrying or being sad about it. Please don't blame yourself for everything. You want to touch people's life and bring happiness. Yes of course you can but it doesn't always work your way. So long as you try to make people happy, I think you have done your part. Whether the person finds happiness eventually is up to him or her.
I am talking to you right now. The way you talk.haha its really kinda innocently ke ai. haiz.
And then it started raining. Mr wong immediately said in msn. I think you no need to sleep liao. Which seems rather true. Its strange. For the past few days, half of me was trying to adopt the don't bother about her attitude. The other half simply enjoy missing her. I don't really understand but as I told wong. Stop thinking so much and be appreciative of what we have now. If not, of what we already had. And because I know she will most probably read this, I shan't talk more about this. Haiz, remember what she said, remember how she felt. Don't want her stressing and thinking about whats up my mind. Part of wanting her to be happy involves me being happy. Kao my english really sucks I really can't phrase this kind of ideas without equations.Grrgg...
A close observe will realise I no longer (ok well i just did so..seldom) write about me and her. Plus I don't talk about me and her unless really necessary. Aiya, cock I think this is one times big dramatic irony. Whatever.
~Deep down inside, I am trying to deny an innate feeling~
Eh dear girl. Something for you. I think you know what to do. Just that you are not too sure of whether its appropriate. I will second whatever decision you make ok. Maybe I am not too involved in the situation therfore I am saying this but I guess it isn't really a big issue. So there is no point worrying or being sad about it. Please don't blame yourself for everything. You want to touch people's life and bring happiness. Yes of course you can but it doesn't always work your way. So long as you try to make people happy, I think you have done your part. Whether the person finds happiness eventually is up to him or her.
I am talking to you right now. The way you talk.haha its really kinda innocently ke ai. haiz.
posted by zente @ 7:23 AM
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